The Hard Yard Reflections on those Missing Moments

It happens every now and then and this morning there it was....that moment when I forgot...and automatically picked up the phone and started to call mom's #.....she passed away in 2010 but I still have those moments when I still forget that fact.....I guess old habits are hard to break....anywho...I wrote this today and decided to share it here because maybe someone else out there has had these same type of moments and can relate :)
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The Hard Yard

Spanky Luvs Vintage on Jul 21, 2012

• Tags: death, hard, Life, loss, presence, touch

About those missing you moments.

The Hard Yard

I’m not sure which is harder

……………………………………

calling you (because I forget)

you are no longer here

and that moment when

I push the red to end the call

in mid-ring

or is it the Holidays

when you are not there

it’s just the empty chair

staring at me

taunting me

because you are not in it.

But I can feel you here

I know you are still here

somewhere in my heart

and that is the hardest part

my hardened heart

so seemingly hollow after

you left

so different

and yet

it feels like it is getting

back to real.

What I wouldn’t do to be

able to touch you

to kiss you

to see your pretty

smile

embrace

touch

warmth

I miss you momma

and it is still

the hardest

yard

mile

moment

in my life

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